tears of sorrow
tears of joy…
tears of despair
tears of hope…
December 10, 2008
June 21, 2008
With the Z610i which I own since last year, I can keep a lot of sms. I kept so many sms that I was notified a few times to clear them because it is 95% full. This pop up has been irritating me for the past 6 month. And each time I have to go through my sms and start to mark several to clear. Why am I so reluctant to clear them? Sentimental value, obviously!
Sometimes when I am feeling sad, lonely, depress etc especially when I am alone, ermm.. at night … I will look at the sms:
“relax yourself… rest early…”
“thought of you. wonder how you are?…”
“drink more water and rest more because i heard that you are sick, take cara ya”
“hey, are you ok already? sleep early, ok. goodnight”
“bought 2 dumplings for you, will find ways to pass to you tomorrow…”
“take care!”
“when are you coming home? …”
Or once a while, some forwarded messages like:
“true friends never leave each other, true friends never part, they just some time sit silently, deep in each other heart saying, i’m still here!”
Many more….
How could I delete those touching sms? Sob … sob…
June 9, 2008
the above link was given to me by a colleague, to cheer me up. though i don’t understand a single chinese character, .. to say i don’t know totally is a lie, i do know some very simple ones..heh…you know, those kindergarten stuff, hahaha… anyway, the tune is very nice. you can let it repeats and you won’t get bored. maybe is me. at this time. well, maybe you would like it too.
June 7, 2008
This is the season of rice dumplings, so said my colleagues. I love it so much, whether it is in or out season.
Anyway, the season just reminded me of how much I yearned for it during the same season a year ago, about 1-2 months after I started to work in Phnom Penh. And the yearning is back! You can imagine how much so when I announced it on my YM ID, took the time to google for the image of rice dumplings, and now blog about it! Haha…
I have been asking for the prices and places where I can get hold of one. (Ohhh, at least one, please….) The price is still outrageous. Averagely US$2.50 for a just-enough bite. So is about RM8.00! I think I can get 3 with the same price back home! (Huh, no?) The reason, the ingredients are imported. Hhmm….
I told a friend about it because her mum is a super-delicious rice dumplings maker. I will be back home this month end, so I casually YM her that I would not be able to make it for the season.
“Is your mum making it this year?”
“Ya”
“Oh, I will only be back this month-end. Looks like I am going to miss it”
“Ya” (silent)
The next few days,
“My mum will make some for you when you are back. I will get the ingredients for her, but no leaves…”
“Yippeee, that is what I was hoping you would say!”
Oh, I am a very frank person. Hahaha….
Oh yeah, while I was sourcing for the best image, I stumbled into a blog site on food, glorious food! (http://pearlyn83.wordpress.com/2007/07/20/chinese-rice-dumplings-buk-changzongzi/). The above mouth-watering image is taken from there. Go, enjoy the rest of the yummy photos there! Ooooo…..
June 7, 2008
am so upset
that i allow myself
to lower down the protective wall
am so upset
that i allow myself
to be stabbed so much deeper than i have expected
which is more hurtful
the fact that you hurt me or
the fact that i allow myself to get hurt by you
which is more stupid
the fact that i still miss you or
the fact that i allow myself to miss you
strange o strange
stranger in a strange land
living as a strange man
surviving a strange life
June 7, 2008
*Sigh*. It seems that I have started with a sigh when I chatted with friends or colleagues, even with family member so often lately.
“How are you?”
“Sigh”
“Hi there!”
“Sigh”
“Working late?”
“Sigh”
“Lunch?”
“Sigh”
“Dinner”
“Sigh”
“Hi!”
“Sigh” !!!
And occassionaly, I will just pick someone and start a chat with “sigh”. Hahaha.. Even blogging about it now, I am actually sighing so many times!
*Sigh**Sigh**Sigh* Oh, now it looks like foul language.
June 4, 2008
we usually neglect those who love us, and love those who neglect us ~ night owl
March 22, 2008
Phrase heard through National Geographic this morning:
“When you kill someone, not only you kill a person. You kill his descendent too”.
March 21, 2008
a part of me says, we are just friend …
the other part of me says, we are actually more than friend … and you told me so!
a part of me says, you treated me like a toy, when you have the time, you play with me, when you have none, not even a sms to say hi …
the other part of me says, career is more important, you should focus more on that …
a part of me says, is ok, we may not have a future …
the other part of me says, i miss your presence …
a part of me says, i am glad that you have chosen to walk away because i just couldn’t do it …
the other part of me says, i wish you wouldn’t have done that…
a part of me says, you are such a selfish person …
the other part of me says, i shouldn’t blame you, i would have done it if i were in your shoes …
a part of me says, i wish you would have the courage to face it because of me …
the other part of me says, i was the one who asked you not to …
a part of me says, i deserve someone better than you …
the other part of me says, you too deserve the same …
a friend asked, “are you paid to defend him?”
willingly and stupidly i did without pay …
February 4, 2008
Finally…. the last collection of the wats. Phew…
